who wants to watch plays with me! (:

6:08 PM;

somedays you pray for faith and prudence
somedays you pray for sin
today is one of those days
somedays you just dont know what you have or what you want
so when they contradict
you pray your sin will never be found out
that it'll remain buried, deep beneath the surface.
so ultimately, are you gonna yield. AGAIN?

forgive me, my weakness
i didnt know why

10:59 PM;

if i put it out, will it come alive again?
god, im gonna miss this.
it wasn't supposed to be like this, i wasn't supposed to lose my way

4:43 PM;

T G I F.
im damn tired. i'm gonna be in bed by 11 tonight.
math tuition tmr, argh.

look how they shine for you
and everything you do
i wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
its true, look how they shine for you

8:01 PM;

it's like standing on a cliff and throwing things in.
if you're lucky, you'd throw enough to cushion your imminent fall.
if you're not, well, then you're not.
but who's to know how much you should throw in, when it seems everything is always never enough. sometimes i think i'm not trying hard enough; she's not responding. they say hard work will be rewarded; kiss my ass. had my labour paid off, things wouldn't be this fucked. i wouldn't be up at 130 trying to patch things up. she's like a never-ending black hole that sucks the life out of everything. my life is already circling around her but shes not responding. sometimes i throw just to see if i can fill it up, only to discover how deluded i actually am. it'll never be enough.
so tell yourself that everythings gonna be okay
that all that angst will just fade away
then tell yourself you'll live
through weekday shits and weekend bliss

1:16 AM;

bad day.

11:40 PM;

this weekend was goood (:
friday: facial, massage, drinks with aloysius, mum and her friends at indochine, fractured
saturday: tuition (urgh), cartoon network, movies AND celebrated sam's birthday at cafe del mar (even though i think i left wayy earlier than everyone else.. haha)
sunday: lunch at boon tong kee and er blogging.
sounds good! (:
what sucks is that, the OH-SO-INTELLIGENT daphne LOST most of the pics from sam's birthday! (SORRY BABES!) thank god sharlane and sam took more pics after i left, otherwise id feel kinda bad..haha
see i uploaded all the pics (ie. COPIED frm memory card file to my pictures), then i began to look through em, deleting some that were blurred, resizing pics, editting em. i TOTALLY forgot that i was supposed to send the pics to people. but at least i still had the copies in the memory card right? yeah then i click 'delete all files' on the camera. and thats it. ALL GONE.

SORRY weiqi!
i deleted photos cos i cant keep all of em! my com is running outta space i think.. it keeps hanging! :(

well anyways, heres what left of everything.

SAM'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION (:

2:26 PM;

1:40 AM;

okay somebody HAS to teach me how to publish your template. i cant seem to see kevin's link on my blog! :(

after spending over an hour on the sistic website, ive FINALLY managed to order the tickets!
im gonna watch 'a midsummers night dream' with ada on 19th may! and im going for 'the crystal mirror' with my mum nxt sat night. its some dinner and performace thing. we got vip tickets! IM SO BRINGING A CAMERA. haha hopefully my mum will wanna cam whore with me that night.

MORE NEWS.
im gonna be selling spca things with mich on sunday 29th april at causeway point (12-230pm). PLEASE COME SUPPORT! help the animals! haha

9:48 PM;

kevin's got a blog!

stupid boy didnt tell me.
YOU OWE ME ONE.

10:09 PM;

PAY ATTENTIONNNNN :(
i didnt go for training, i was lazy
i didnt even get work done.. today was spent playing with simba hahaa he came up today and i couldnt get him to go downstairs. oh well (: not like i was complaining. it was nice to have some company while i attempted to read chem bonding. it was good company. he just sat there, watching me intently as i poured over the 23 page notes for PART 1 of the notes. somehow it made the notes so much more bearable.

our lips can touch,
and our cheeks, can brush,
cos our lips can touch, here

6:22 PM;

friday was gooood (:
kevin, secret receipe, shopping, macs, camwhore = gooood start to the weekend!
so maybe cam whoring started off on a wrong note, it was kind of weird. we were walkg and taking hideous pics of ourselves, then came 'kiddy land' in marina. (ie. kevin goes all YAY hahahaha) okay maybe not. anyways, we literally sat on little rides and took pics.



then it was macs and major cam whoring (:
so.. picssss!












thats all of it!
love,

3:29 PM;

today i finally remembered somebody's blog address.
after almost 4 months, it just HIT me, like some bullet train. yeah i didnt get it immediately but i was close, close enough for a successful second guess (: so i read the entries then it suddenly occurs to me, how much shit that mind of hers/his takes. its pretty amazing, under that facade of laughter and apparent joy is a pretty fucked up place. maybe its like that for all of us? we all have skeletons in our closet and perhaps it makes what lies beneath pretty damn fucked. and its as if school is not a big enough problem on its own, we still have to worry about our own little voluntary dabbling which really does not help in cleaning up the academic mess we're (i'm) in.
sometimes i wonder if i made the right decision back then; maybe if i had been firmer in the things i wanted and hadnt backed down at the eleventh hour, things would have turned out so differently. i wouldnt have to worry about double negatives in sentences, backside attacks, oligopolies and the probability of this year ending on a terribly fucked note.

10:13 PM;

all the common test marks are in
they suck, real bad.
oh well. go daphne! haha.

enough dry humour. anyways i bailed on the clique last sunday. sorry yall. really, i shouldve gone.. cant believe i fell asleep.. ill make it up to yall.. PROMISE (:


he's everything you want
he says all the right things, at exactly the right time
but he means nothing to you
and you dont know why

10:23 PM;

i spent 4hours in church today
talk about overkill
IM SO TIRED :(

11:20 PM;

today i ran 8 rounds (:
yesterday i ran 10 rounds (:

18 rounds in 2 days = COMPLETELY shagged.

im tiredddddddd
i can barely walk.
gonna meet the clique later. hoorahh for clique outings (:
i'll be the one bringing the camera today.
pics soon!
i wonder where we're going..

4:51 PM;

today i found myself, for the third time, in the principal's office.
reason: uniform (AGAIN)
i think i am THE most unlucky person in school. who gets caught 2x by the PRINCIPAL for attire? me. it could be the bright red bag that attracts the unwanted attention or it could be pure bad luck. at least he was nice enough to NOT give me a white slip. thank god for nice people (:

'how many white slips do you have presently?'
'2, sir'
'so one more means you have 3. do you know the implications?'
'yes, sir, i do.'
'are you aiming for a scholarship?'
-stares intently at him, makes a decision
'yes, sir, i am'.

somebody just told a little white lie. why? to preserve the "i-am-a good-girl-with-high-aspirations" image of a rafflesian. maybe its just me. i didnt have to lie but think this: girl with horrid uniform + low aspirations = cannot be bothered with school rules = MAYBE I SHOULD give her a white slip.

or MAYBE, someone should just help me jump over a pot of burning charcoal

10:32 PM;

its monday tomorrow
fuckkkkkkkk

8:19 PM;

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