i should stop alternating btwn friendster and blogger. its really a waste of time..

7:14 PM;

its crazy, you know. how these tables have turned.
it feels like im desperately trying to grab onto you, onto something remotely you. but im not getting any reply and im not grabbing onto anything. youre just floating away; the more i grab, the further you go. you'll finally be lost in the horizon.

8:36 PM;

i solemnly swear to stick to the terms :)

8:16 PM;

don't look at me like i have all the fucking answers, cos i dont

9:43 PM;

it's paper faces on parade

1:43 AM;

it was sad happy lacking complete boring fun. it was a contradiction. maybe i really will get both sides of the coin this time.

10:49 PM;

i have an acute lack of discipline.
i have a tendency to let things spiral out of control.
call me mad but things werent supposed to go this way, guess i should get used to this feeling.
vulnerablehelplesstotallyoutofcontrol.
when things started to get a bit better, you waltz into my life, fucking every damned thing up for me, only to waltz right out again. then youd see me waving goodbye, uttering very cliched and overused words, maybe with a little tear down the cheek. or maybe i wont be there at all.
im sorry but i dont wait. at least for now.

10:04 PM;

yeah i skipped school today (: hoho
my sunburn is peeling so badly i dont wanna go cos it hurts. and yeah my face is still intact. its the arms that are kind of peely now. grosssss
OTHER STUFF I DID over the weekend! and there are picturesssss yay hahaha (:

SATURDAY: aaron's birthday surprise by kevin weiqi and me!
it was pretty simple. we showed up at his door with a cake and present. i think we surprised him? haha it was good anyways, catching up with everyone. oh and get well soon aaron! (:





we stayed at his place for an hour plus then i cabbed down to meet ada for dinner in a midsummers night dream (:






before weiqi and kevin met me, they met kevin's ex-colleague, A.

A: your girlfriend?
weiqi: NO.
kevin: why wouldnt you want to be my girlfriend?
weiqi: cos i cant imagine bedding you

hahaha (:

8:47 AM;

im supposed to get stuff for clare. so far ive gotten her ONE shirt. hahaha and in the process, ive gotten myself 3. i guess this shows that im virtually incapable of shopping for a girl cos id probably end up shopping for myself.
this weekend, ive gotten 2 junk food tshirts and a NEW tan. (:
spent the day by the swimming pool today. tanned, read gp essays and drank a jug of honeydew juice that ended up looking a bit like beer. haha OH WELL.
daddy was around.
i realised my dad is actually quite sociable. always associated him with the socially inapt since he acts that way at home. saw him with his friends today haha it was pretty cool. i guess im gonna have to revise my perception of the guy

8:15 PM;

tis human nature; we love the convoluted roads and the sense of satisfaction we derive from it.
maybe i should be more of everything and less of nothing.

1:34 AM;

i think it calms you down and in that sense, i guess it grows on you. didn't like is very much then but it grows on you. it pulls you out of the hype of everything surrounding you, gets you to think and feel. i guess i should give it one more shot. hopefully the thirds a charm

4:18 PM;

the weekend was good (:
happy mothers day!
oh i FINALLY visited haji lane on sat. LOVE the place. the shops are AMAZING. i got myself a pretty necklace and a pair of ear rings. got my mum sth for mothers day too (: too bad shes not around. im gonna give it to her when she gets back
i cant wait for may to end. the house is this close to unbearable now that shes gone.

11:02 PM;

oh my god.
just fuck it :(

11:38 PM;

this time, it'll be different
i promise you, it'll be different. just don't leave me behind

All hands on deck don’t abandon the ship
You’ll never know what it could have been

12:24 AM;

it so fucking contradictory it feels like im stuck. maybe status quo is the best and the only option; the truth may be so much more than you can handle. so let what happens in my mind stay in my mind, and everything else remain concealed.


my body's broken, yours is bent
every me and every you

1:18 AM;

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